Currently Reading Hyper Police, Vol. 6 By Mee see related

 death is a event that happens to everything.

this being said, meatwad the zombie slayer is being retired,

xanga no longer can hold my interest so im gone.

thanks for the commetns and reading my wierd and dumbass ranting.

but all thing must come to an end and this is mine.

later

well not really.

love

freeman,

the king of the zombies

Currently Watching The Legend of Himiko - Sacred Fire By Legend of Himiko see related

THEY CALL ME MISTER SEA COCUMBER

HEY IM BACK AFTER A LONG BREAK

not much has changed ayer is gone

im working at wal~mart *mush slave* yes master lol

but on a really high note

HEATHERS BACK

i know must of you dont know her but shes this really cool girl from a year or so back she joined the navy and i thought she was gone forever but shes back.

and im really happy about it.

i just hope i didn't screw it up last time where i cant get her back.

well im reading a new book called the rising its  about smart zombies and i dont mean smart like using weapons i mean smart like talking. YAY THEY ATE MY BRAINS.

well that about it for now more later

love

jaf

sometimes you need to almust die to truly live- me

you have to risk pain it all to get the best- ???

Currently Listening Thirteenth Step By A Perfect Circle the noose see related

YOU CANT KEEP AN UNDEAD DOWN

thanks to my loved ones.

and guess what

I'M BAAACCCKKK

tahahahaha

i guess im a fast healer. i realized that one lost person in a life of losing things really wasn't worth all the tears well that or i was just all out. it took me two days to bounce back but yea im back and writing again. i guess to write about suffing you have to suffer every now and again.

my writings dark and twisted again like i like it. and ive got some new ideas that'll really make them scream. gwahahahahaha "oooh yes, death is just the start of this" qoute from the deamon.

im feeling good and i just wanna say thank you for everyone that has been there for me in my hour of need everyone that told me to smile though all the pain and cheer up.

life is pain but without pain you cant know joy.

anyway works good.

im shaving tomm getting rid of tha facel hair....

hehehe really cute girl at work. i dont have a chance in hell but hey never stopped me before.

one last question? why is it everyone is shocked to find out i like the librarian type girl. long brown hair, glasses, awkward cuteness. the miss readman look. everyone thinks its funny but yea.

anyway

miss ya april

later

jaf

if you going though hell keep going- "winston chruchill"

just becuase i like helping people doesn't mean i dont love other peoples suffering- me

Currently Watching Dawn of the Dead (Widescreen Unrated Director's Cut) By Mekhi Phifer, Sarah Polley, Ving Rhames, Jake Weber see related

why even try, when all i get is a bullet in the chest

i sick of being me, of taking care of everyone else before me, of hiding just how much i hurt inside just so no one well worry, im sick of doing all i can to help only to get pissed on, im fucking sick of living.

im cried so much in the last couple of hours that i cant cry anymore.

why is it every god fuck damned thing i touch turns to shit in my hands.

i just wish i had the guts to do want i want to do.

i know now why Anita killed herself. becuase all you get for kindness is pain.

im sick of being kind, i dont wanna hurt anymore. why did she have to leave me alone she was the only aunt or family that knew how i felt.

why is it everything i love has to be tainted why the fuck cant i be happy.

and fuck anyone who says this is emo

this is a lifetime of really pain, everyday i wake up knowin im not good at anything, missing the dead and wishing i could see them.

i just cant smile through my sadness anymore i cant do it. not anymore.

dont worry im not gotting to hurt myself that would be emo

but im strong enough to live, just not enough to smile im done.

Currently Watching R.O.D. - Read or Die see related

you can always get it right next time

well i started work yesterday day, and i dont know how it happened but my curse is broken.

i finally got that right at least. i went the whole first day of work without getting hurt.

yay. no cuts no bumps, bo loose of blood at all yay.

now if i could just get red of whatever thing thats makin me sick id me fine.

not that its that bad my throut's sore, my voice sound like ass, im been calfing up brown,  and ive had i dull headach for like a week now. nothing bad but its just a pain in the ass. im sick of my sickness. lol

so other then meeting a really cool lil vamp girl with a.d.d on myspace ive done nothing this week but read.

well im off to boil myself in the tub.

love and miss you kasey

and you too april

later

freeman

you cant say a man that dooesn't want your help?- ????

the zombies and vampires well join forces to destroy there enemies... the living- me